Where is support when you need it??

As the partner of a man with Pancreatic Cancer, embarking on this journey I thought that in this day and age it would be relatively pain free, with lots of support for both him and I. The reality is so different, it has been horrendous for both of us but particularly for him. Last week he was on his hands and knees with pain, awake most of the night, I gave him as much medication as I could to no avail. He was admitted to a private hospital and stayed there for 1 week. He was discharged today having started 1 of 10 sessions of radium in the hope that it will help the pain. It is so so hard to watch the man you love in such pain, there is no let up, there seems to be little psychological support for either of us, I feel so alone, so helpless, I am angry at times, with him, with the disease and with myself for feeling like this! Life is just awful at the moment for everyone!